This morning I was on my way to pick up Shae from my in-laws and I could think of nothing but the journey my family is on. Up and down, up and down. That is the way it has been going for us lately. If any of you know me very well then you know how much I worry. I worry until my stomach is in knots. This journey is no different for me. I worry for the well being of my wife. I worry about the health of Shyloh and Tyce. I worry about Shae. I worry about how we are going to pay our mortgage, pay for our car, pay for all of these medical bills that are coming, and pay everything else we have to pay for. All of these things are going through my mind as I am driving. I pass a house and notice an old man cutting his grass. "I wonder if he has any worries?" It was at that moment that I remembered Psalm 46:10. "Be still and know that I am God." As I kept driving I noticed a house that was down right filthy. Grass was 5 ft high. Busted out windows. Gutters hanging off. Old cars that were rusted out. You could tell that someone didn't care too much for their living space. I then began to think about my life and what people saw when they looked at me. Hmmmmmm. Needless to say, I am still thinking about it as I type this. I need to make changes. And in God's own time, those changes are happening. Let it go. That is what I've stumbled on. Just let it go. GIve it to Him. I gave this entire situation to him. Our finances. Our twins. Our family. And I did all of this during a 15 minute drive while being still. :)
As Shae and I were driving to our house I got a phone call from Renee. I could barely understand her. She sounded like she was crying. I asked what was wrong and she began to tell me about a phone call she had just received. A customer/consignor at her shop who has been following our blog had called her to let her know that she and her husband have been praying for us and that they wanted to give us a "gift certificate" for one night at a Hilton hotel. Huh. Guess we have one night covered for our trip to MIami. :) (Thank you. You know who you're) Later in the day my father in law called us to let us know that someone had called the shop to find out how the could help us with our medical bills. Call me crazy. but I am starting to see a pattern here. Do these 2 examples solve all of our worries? Nope. But it does show that God is in control and in His own time he will show himself. This isn't our money. This isn't our house. This isn't our car. This is Gods. It is all His. We pretend like it is ours because we think we have somehow earned it. Ha! These are blessings from God and sometimes it takes finding out that your pregnancy is like 1 in a million odds and because of those odds you end up having to go to a specialist 2 times a week to make sure your babies are doing ok and when they are not you have to put everything on hold and drive to Miami to have a procedure done that is only performed in 3 hospitals in the U.S. and then wait till the next day to see if both of your babies survived and then go back home to see your specialist again so he can tell you that everything is improving and you only need to come in once a week, to only find out that there is too much amniotic fluid being produced and they need to take some out that later causes you to have contractions and cramping that leads to going to the ER at midnight and then back to the specialist the next day to see that the fluid level hasn't improved much and you need to drive back down to Miami to have more tests done so you can see the blessings that He has given us. Blessings. Be still. Yes, they go hand n hand. This is all Gods. He will provide in His own time and if it is His will. How can I get mad at that? I can't. All I can do is pray and trust. Those 2 things will propel the changes in my life.
We will be leaving early Monday morning. Please pray for us to have safe travels and for the doctors that will be taking care of Renee, Shyloh, and Tyce. Also, know that we are praying for all of you as well. We love y'all!!
